I thought I was travelling across the world.
In fact, I was travelling back to the beginning of my life.
I just didn’t know it yet.
It began with curiosity.
Why did certain patterns keep repeating? Why did some places, people and experiences feel strangely familiar? Was I simply living my life—or unconsciously trying to resolve something that had begun long before I had words for it?
I didn’t know it then, but the journey would take me across continents, through ancient landscapes, into myth, ritual, memory and relationships, and eventually back to the earliest chapters of my own life.
Only at the very end did I realise how close I had come to dying—more than once.
Only then did I understand why finding my own voice had always felt impossible.
Only then did something I had carried since before memory finally begin to loosen its grip.
The five books tell that story.
Together they form one unfolding journey—a true story that moves between travel memoir, psychological mystery, mythology, spiritual exploration and personal transformation. The deeper the journey goes, the more the outer adventures begin to mirror an unseen inner landscape, until the line between myth and memory becomes almost impossible to separate.
The books were written over several years and published at different times. They are presented here in the order in which the story unfolds.
The Five Books
Two White Feathers and a Handful of Rocks
Everything begins with a journey through South and Central America alongside a Peruvian shaman. Pilgrimage, sacred sites and unfamiliar cultures gradually become something far more than travel. Strange coincidences and unexpected encounters hint that another story is quietly unfolding beneath the surface.
Summerlands
After a series of family deaths, the journey leads to Glastonbury, where the landscape itself seems to come alive. Ancient myths, the Zodiac, history and personal experience begin reflecting one another in unexpected ways, raising questions about grief, inheritance and the stories we unknowingly continue to live.
Enchanted Beings
As the mystery deepens, conversations with healers, artists, craftspeople and spiritual practitioners reveal radically different ways of understanding reality. Readers are invited into extraordinary experiences: accompanying a dying father into the next world, discovering the language of a horse, or exploring the wisdom held within an ancient rune. The book asks how ritual, nature, creativity and imagination shape the way we experience ourselves and the world around us.
Sin-eater
The most intimate book of the series.
What first appears to be an outward adventure gradually turns inward, uncovering patterns laid down before conscious memory. A trail of unexpected clues leads through ancestry, embodied memory and the living landscape until seemingly unrelated experiences begin to reveal a hidden pattern.
The Sin-eater Companion Guide
Part companion, part detective’s notebook, this volume explores the discoveries behind Sin-eater. It draws together the patterns, symbols, research and lived experience woven throughout the series, offering readers another way into the mystery.
More Than a Memoir
This isn’t a self-help programme or a book of easy answers.
It’s the story of what happens when someone refuses to look away.
It follows an intensely associative mind—one that travels to Mallaig to retrieve a lost soul part, discovers the deepest thread of self at Fingal’s Stone, where a distant ancestor once lost theirs, or spends hours unravelling the meaning of a channelled cosmology because something about it feels strangely familiar.
At the centre of the journey, an unnamed fear is slowly approached through conversations with a soul storyteller, a psychotherapist and a trance healer. Fragment by fragment, a life begins to make sense.
Across five books, questions of identity, childhood, trauma, myth, ancestry, place and consciousness weave together into a narrative that is as much a mystery as it is a memoir.
Readers fascinated by psychology will find one story.
Those drawn to mythology, spirituality and ancient landscapes may discover another.
Others may simply enjoy following an extraordinary true journey that becomes increasingly impossible to predict.
Why This Story Matters
At its heart, the series asks a timeless question:
What if the stories we think we’re living are only the surface of a much older story waiting to be discovered?
The answers emerge not through theory, but through adventure, unexpected encounters, startling synchronicities and a growing willingness to face what had once been impossible to see.
The result is a five-book journey that explores the hidden architecture of a life—and the possibility that our deepest wounds may also become the doorway to our greatest freedom.
Whether you come as a reader, a seeker, a therapist, a filmmaker or a fellow traveller, these books invite you into a world where psychology meets mythology, landscapes become characters, and every journey into the outer world reveals another layer of the one within.